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How are we today? The amazing legendary YouTube comedy icon, Glozell Green will say " Is you okay?" Most will likely answer "Grand". But more than often the spoken answer doesn't reflect the true feeling, deep down heart broken, crying,screaming or raging. We probably compelled to say grand because thats what the one asking expected to hear. Its like its not normal for people saying ' am not feeling well' ' am going through some stuff'' am down" or am not ok'. Some asking'

The Phantom Land This one entitled , Toby the squirrel. In Malay langguage it is what written above. Once upon a time, in a vibrant enchanted forest where leaves danced to the whispers of the breeze, there lived a litttle squirrel named Toby with fur the color of warm chestnuts and eyes sparkling with curiosity . Toby loved to explore the mesmerising world around him. At times he sneaked into the forbidden forrest where he was warned not to go out of curiosity. He was

Or to the outsiders it simply means am sober. Siber just another fun word that my friends and I use interchangeably for sober, besides the rhymes,maybe a little gentle to the ears considering the meaning behind. I dreams and had hope for years what seems to be my impossible dream but never thought becoming sober is do able especially when you messed up with heavily addictive drug such as crystal meth aka tina. I attempted many times to come clean but failed, I never kne

So the elusive Vietnamese' Coriander leaves finally captured. The laksa Utara My Styleeeee mission done. Not the typical laksa noodle but done the job. The Mackerel Laksa' broth The cucur in the bunch make this one extra special Truly galore!

Fight your battles like the boss. Who are you?

Celebrate the differences and diversity Garden of Eden-Lets the serpent bite us The allies I always think its hard not to believe in god. As I mentioned before , as a man of god I attributed and dedicated everything to the one , the true ultimate god. I always a believer in god, was a Muslim for 40 years, Allah was the almighty. I made a promise or rather sworn to myself that no matter what happened I will forever be muslim. Born and die as one. What if I was born as

A bean for every bite. Versatile, cheap and delicious! Some pandan leaves and palm sugar will elevate this fav childhood porridge another notch. Add durian or sago for the extra bonanza . Dont forget a dollop of glutinous rice on the side! Truly bonanza.

I ❤️ sardines Today I saw sardines as am walking to the gym. It’s slightly wet Friday morning with some drizzles. My OOTD include, fav green short short and sunglasses both from H&M , white cropped T shirt with slight coffee stain and a red hot Zara ‘ jacket to complete the look. With sunglasses on, in my head I was fab. The sardines were jammed inside the morning LUAS. Some leaning on the glass doors looking outside. Looking at me. All in mostly black or dark blue jac

A month has passed since my solitude, self rehab and venture into personal growth started, Here are some small wins but meaningful achievements to date to keep the momentum going. There’s no glitters and fireworks but a lots to be thankful for. The efforts made are paying off nicely. Am home. -Am closer than ever to god and thats everything , the reason the motivation and I forever grateful. -Never was I abandoned , despite my shadows my many wrongdoings and I have been

Dried Chilli Fried Rice Cendul dessert

Yayoi Kusama The former director of Oxford'Future Human Institute( FHI), also a leading physicist and philosopher Nick Bolstrom wrote a thesis in 2001 entitled" Are You Living In Computer Stimulation?" Here he proposed 3 hypothesis: Humankind likely to go extinct before reaching post human stage. Any post human civilisation is extremely unlikely to run significant numbers of their evolutionary stimulations. We are likely living in computer stimulation. Am taking sometim

Achtung achtung!! I would like to report another strange phenomenon, a glitch in the matrix. This is repeat of same event happened in less than 2 weeks. Ellon Musk is that you ? A strong hot German polizei please answer the phone Achtunggg!!! Here the mystery unfolds This one was taken on the 31/05 - I was doing squat at Flyefit . There is little either sick or old pigeon in the corner alone. I wished I could have done more but that’s nature. The following week on the 09/06,

In urban area we are very likely to see pigeons, seagulls and crows/ravens. They are in abundance ,very adaptive and thriving absolutely well. Thats alone command admiration and respect. Some people called them pest but they are my saviours in getting through my thick and thin. They are my therapist, my gurus and my family who taught me more than any man could. I also enjoyed watching the ducks, the magpies, the lone gargantuan heron and swans here in Dublin. There is also

Before I came to Dublin in 2005, I did 2 years International Baccalaureate (IB) programme. It’s the equivalent to A level. One of the compulsory subject dreaded by many was theory of knowledge(TOK). At that time, fresh from high school , we were far from thinkers. With our excellent achievement at the national exam, SPM and now with provisional scholarship to study abroad, for many of us IB was the chill honeymoon time. Theory of Knowledge subject itself was heavy, borin

The dark clouds The rainbow The moon Nature symphony. The sound of clear turquoise stream passing through shallow rocky river. The happy birds singing birdsongs Magic. Years ago i was crazy over circuit music and always had the music on the blast non stop. Now for change as I outgrew the party phase, something a bit more peaceful and nurturing. I of course still enjoy circuit music but once in a blue moon would do fine when i need to loosen up my rheumatism. In this jo

Make your shadow conscious We are both the shadow and the light

Am writing this from Dublin’ Castle ‘ garden, I never knew this lovely garden exist .Small but just enough, pretty and peaceful. The sun is rising but not too warm just nice on the skin and some morning breeze to wash the heat off. It’s almost a month since I took on this path, prioritizing my well-being and personal growth. I left my job, my friends and my family so I can fully embrace this journey. I left the world behind. I got new mobile number just so I can have internet

A good friend of mine is the guru for some of the most hilarious catchphrases , the go to ,the one very much updated with gen Z’ lingos. You do you!!( YDY) The term is unisex or could as well be binary too. Let's do it in the positive context instead of the shade. Let’s take a moment and ask ourselves are we fulfilling life , being honestly us, are we embodying the spirit of you do you? What stopping us from being us and living our true life? People will always talk

This nobody cannot thank you enough, I say it every time I remember. But the least, I should put it in writing here as well. Thank you so much for saving me from myself. Thank you for taking me off the painful cycle. Thank you for giving me love and kindness when am destroying myself . Thank you for picking me up from the dirts. Thank you for rebuilding me when I was long past dead. Thank you for keeping me kind and grounded despite the adversities. I have endless to thank

I grew up with Japanese anime, Tomatoman was one of them. Do you remember Tomatoman? Doraemon, Ultraman, Dragon balls, Sailormoon , Shin Chan and Naruto were also my childhood fav. Today, with no relation to anime whatsoever, i made tomato rice and mango salad because there still plenty of beef rendang leftovers. Rendang, a traditional slow cooked curry takes forever to cook and requires a lots of ingredients, so i made 2kg of beef rendang instead which will last me for