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The journey to my self discovery has been like wild rollercoster and I only just bought the ticket. There are many ups and downs but thats the beauty i guess. Lots of tears and anger too. At times am lost and confused at times am hopeful and very thankful to have been guided on this journey heavily by the universe and god. We are enough we are worthy and relax we are at where we should be. ( have to remind myself that many times) Your journey is uniquely yours, be in

A narcissist hiding in the corner Hi to all narcissist, Who are you destroying today? Couldn't be much polite am I ? lol Have you ever met one ? No? Well you could be one of them. The sneaky one who never took accountability but always blaming others for everything. They are few version of you but lack of accountability is usually the red flag for me and because of that saying sorry for their wrongdoings is never a thing. The blame is always on others on their side of

In Feb 2023 I received an email saying that am being investigated by the medical council for poor professional misconduct -breaching a patient confidentiality and for using anabolic steroid. My dealer who is a living icon a muscle god ,was busted by the Health Product Regulatory Agency ( HPRA) and they found our phone conversations. I met my dealer when he attended emergency department for syncopal episode prior to taking his steroid injection. His body was phenomenal w

Being straight can be hard but being gay is another level and we are often very critical to each others. Ironically, we tend to forget the language of love and kindness among us despite the already immense pressure and discrimination pressed against us by the society, Looking good is not just important but a mandatory. Asians are usually the pariah, less desirable among the bunch. Even the asians don't like rice that much. On the good side, the asian trans and crossdress

In my glory and gory The catchphrase above obviously robbed from the iconic the legendary mother monster , Lady Gaga. I came to Dublin to study medicine in 2005 and graduated in the class of 2010 . Being a doctor was huge but the biggest milestone to me is the chance to be free embracing my sexuality as gay and being truly myself without afraid of being judged or punished. I had the great privilege to live the best gay era that I could ever wished for in Europe and I

The Petronas Twin Tower glammed up for Merdeka Celebration I finished my primary school with commendable UPSR( equivalent to junior cert) result, 3As and 2 Bs out of 5 compulsory subject taken. Dad wasn’t too impressed comparing my brain to prawn’s. I moved then to standard secondary/high school . My turning point probably when I was in form 2 , I wanted a change wanted to do very well in exam. I started putting the hard work and I prayed daily that I will be just as sm

In this life, my journey began in a small Malay village located on the northern part of Malaysian peninsula. I was born into a big Muslim family, 7 of us all together ,5 sisters and 2 brothers . Hardly surprising the youngest one eventually turned into fairy as well. Our upbringings were rooted in Islamic values- we were modest I would say but still with a lots of do and donts. Sometimes, I jokingly compare my family to the Disney Princess’ Snow White and the 7 dwarfs , jus

Namaste, This is the testimony of mine , a nobody my virtual sanctury my little safe space . It’s far from perfect but allows me to be authentic and honest to the world so you get a glimpse of the good and the dark side of me which mostly hidden and remain untold. For those who thought they knew me, go on dig deeper and welcome to my world. A humble perspective on life to the world to whom it may be of benefit. Every piece every entry is very special and personal to me.