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Looking into the cosmos This entry highlight the very important of sleep and rest. This morning I woke up fresh and rested, my mind is clear and beautifully calm. I slept early last night probably around 9-10pm which is rare. For the past few years my sleep have been disaster, I will go on without proper sleep for sometimes even days, 3 days the worst. Of course mainly contributed by substance , the dearest T but also the damage from years of doing night calls and partying

Knock knock knock... Vannakkam, buenas dias, bonjour!! A lovely Friday morning , sun shining with birds flying all over across the sky. Let's spread love and compassion . We are always one. Time for detok! Time to reset. It might not be easy but it worth a good solid try. If you waiting for sign then take this as yours. If you broken and can’t find the way out then by all means do it by heart. For those sceptical why don’t you look inside and find your own answer. 1.Take

Very nice music when you finding your way home

The silly billy funny family stories. I have weird/dark sense of humour and tend to remember junks easily. If you caught me giggling alone I might be reminiscing them. Like the Rosetta stone, my sister wrote on the wall, there is a crazy bird in the house and likes to make noises. She drew a cheeky bird to complement her statement. The bird was the late matriarch, mom. Once, my late dad chased my sister around the house and farted again and again loudly in front of her. Sh

Welcome to the la la land Today, I landed on the la la land. I cant helped but to notice, 2 fairly peculiar things that happened but am thrilled to see where this leading me to. Hopefully not the psych unit lol So last week I read somewhere that as you aligning with your higher self your positive energy will attracts people around you. In the last few days I have noticed that people started working out near me in the gym. Not a large crowd definately not congregation b

Another Sunday another lovely traditional banjar kuih made yesterday.I never made it here in my 20 years being abroad . My late mom and late auntie were the two ladies who kindly introduced me to this beaut! This steamed kuih( sweet savory snacks) has creamy soft coconut topping and layer of banana or in my version , I incorporated jackfruit as the base instead . Cooking is a great way to rekindle to my past and my roots. Am beyond proud to share my Malay banjar heritag

Aka Monadaeg in english or Luna Blues in Latin Traditionally, monday used to be associated with new beginnings following the rest on Sunday. Nowadays, Monday and Sunday's evening are probably the most hated day and time of the week. Instead of joy and smiles, the mood the face changes as once again its the beloved Monday! The chest starts to feel real heavy. How many now struggling or even dying at work? How many crippled by Monday' blues or swallowed by the anxiety of more

A kind gentle reminder to myself and to the the world. Allow me to echo something outrageous and unpopular that might probably cause upsets and shake some ruffles. A bold perspective but invite remembrance . The one contradicts the many mainstream beliefs . The one forgotten or rather mysteriously hidden . Some in the believe that we are all divine, each and every single of us. Our consciousness is divine and our instinct is divine. We are the god, the universe itsel

Congratulation! Another week sober another Saturday morning gym done! Target from last week achieved🥇👑 I rewarded 2 legendary Panem’ “ kwa-san” for myself. Good job you!

What is the fundamental of reality? Let's dive into the fascinating quantum world by looking at these 2 quantum experiments. AI summarised the experiments as below Double Slit Experiment Schrödinger ‘ Cat Experiment And now the cat! 🐈🐈🐈 Akak menggelungsur dik!

Yesterday was another beautiful day. Beautiful because the insights that come with it I lost to my withdrawal I smoked again. I wasn’t angry or frustrated with myself but nevertheless it’s very hard not to feel embarrassed to the god to the universe. I do believe in the true god, the god above all and what am doing isn’t cute ( self kindness as previously mentioned I do embraced my shadows but be at the same time very mindful not to be consumed by them). It's a learning

This one is my anthem my treasure. The one that I always listen too many times when am deep at the bottom of the dark abyss. When life did me dirty . Whats yours? Thank you so very much to the amazing CeS4rvb ❤️

The Hell🤣 I didnt get to share with you my struggles my humbling experience doing internship back home in 2010. I was sick, had to be rushed to St James Hospital the night before my final med exam. As a result,I missed the exam but was allowed to sit for exam at the later date and thankfully passed and graduated with the rest of the class. I somehow missed the internship application for that year , so I returned home. I dreaded going home because I knew the internship is

Love the shadow the darkness. I didn’t do much yesterday, in fact I spent the night and day smoking. I did go to McDonalds in the afternoon because I was craving for bigmac and their lovely bischoff frap. At first it was always the ‘only one smoke whisper’ that again and again will lead to one too many. I said to myself I have achieved so much this week , I deserved a little treat plus am not aiming to be very strict or able to come clean easily just like that. Talking

1.Identify Your Role- Reflect on your responsibilities in various area of your life( personal,professional, social) and commit to fulfilling them. Act Righteously- Make choices that align with ethical standards and contribute positively to your community. Practice Karma Yoga( Selfless Action) -Focus on the process -Engage in activities with dedication and commitment without being overly attached to the outcomes , leading to greater peace of mind. -Serve Others Engage in volun

AI generated brain I promised to study at least one new thing a day , anything just for fun. Long gone since I did neuro anatomy in the second year of medical school and today I learnt about amygdala again, the almond shaped structures next to hippocampus situated in the temporal lobes. Just like duality , one on each side of the brain. Small in structure but it’s the powerhouses that control our emotions , fear,anxiety , joy and happiness. Abnormalities in amygdalae are l

Our small happy family. Its all started with the little orchid I bought over Easter 2023 and then we adopted more like we always meant for each others. The Mantis Rest in power Mantis The Bouquet The Quattro -The little baby is the new cutest addition❤️ La Sissy The Deliososa The one the housemate. The Pinky Fig

Have you been to Panem? This lovely gem perfectly located in the heart of Dublin just right across the Millennium bridge. They survived the economic pressures which ended many others and I am one very loyal fan since like forever , at least 2015. Like the proud sistah , am all smitten seeing them doing very well while keeping the food standard high and as authentic as ever. Kudos to the whole family and the dedicated lovely staff! I watched them grow from a little fa

As a shade to my fellow sistah here in Dublin who always in heat but more than often failed to get any( myself included ), i rebranded the name of this sweet simple but of course yummylicious dessert. The balls- Glutinous flour, water and bit of salt. The Holy grail- Into the pan, pandan leaves, gula Melaka and water Add in coconut milk to join the party As the syrup thickened then spoil the balls with nice hot spa. Let them dancing, they eventually rise on top meaning you