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The world is scary place to live nowadays. Chaos everywhere as we are more divided and separated than ever. We forget the language of love and compassion. We fall for the noises and distractions again and again. The genocide in Palestine, political unrest, world poverty, hate against the Indians and immigration, Islamphobia , transphobia there just no end to conflicts and tension. Who are the traitors responsible stirring the pot among us? As the history tells us there

Kind to those kind Kind to those unkind. True kindness.

Fast forward am 6 months sober now. That’s half a year a 24 weeks and also equivalent to 180 days. Time really flies and my personal clean streak remains pristine. From hurting myself daily to the humbling shaky 5 days clean to 3 weeks , 1 month , 3 months and now am still here holding strong and grounded. Of course it's very beautiful and by now I don't bother about the numbers as much because am confident and what more important is what I do with my life next. For n

According to WHO, 40.8 million people affected with HIV and AIDS worldwide. Based on the 2022 data from the Malaysian Ministry of Health it is estimated about 70000 people here living with the disease . Only 68% of them on the free Anti Retroviral Treatment and for those on treatment 87% achieved viral suppression. MSM reported as the highest mode of transmission followed by heterosexual and IVDU. Bear in mind of those unaware of their status who had never been checke

Cosmic geese and the magical cats I love my morning , no specific routine but just loving it as it is. Am still doing the bi phasic night sleep and by 0430-0500 my body clock will naturally wakes me up. Either hot tea or milo and I'll play my fav Ludovico Einaudi inspired piano music on YouTube to kickstart my morning. I loved the sound of the frogs croaking and the birds singing their songs all around me and if it’s raining heavily , I loved the sound of the downpours

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Moooooo. There is soft cheese known as the laughing cow . I had them few times and I can nibble the whole tray just like that . They are pretty famous I think easily available at most convenient stores. It’s quite interesting that they named their product as the laughing cow. Am sus! Are they talking about us? Sometimes we call others as cow too. Cows tend to follow each others blindly . In life, we tend to follow others blindly without much thinking or questioning. Ac

Thinking about food

Early this morning, I received unexpected news from a good friend of mine, my sistah who only moved to Brazil a week ago that his ex husband who is also our friend passed away. We were just talking about him 3 weeks ago. He was happy with his new life new job and my friend was equally proud of him that he turned his life around. All of us been to so many party together in Dublin and we did Circuit Barcelona as well in 2018. In September that year they tie the knot, on

They can put up the biggest drones show to look cool or listed the hottest guys to entice the younger demographic but we should never forget their thousands years of history. A rebranding as the public interest crashing , new make up new mask but the same old thing same old trick. The Roman Empire didn’t collapse but reinvented into the biggest religion to date. Let the history speak for themselves. Are we looking for more fun and entertainment again? Fall into the th

In KL I stayed with one of my sister for two days. She is supermom with two lovely boys and a daughter with the eldest aged 12 and the youngest boy just above a year old. The family especially the husband is devout muslim and would usually go to the nearby prayer hall together with the eldest son for night group prayers. They only listen to Islamic radio in the car and it’s no surprise that they only have the basic national TV channels. No Netflix or Disney channe

After long slightly tiring more than 17 hours journey I finally landed in KL. It's been 3 years since I was last home and before that 8 years ago. Back then, it was just a short 10 days trip but still a very much memorable time. I was burnt out from work as well at that time too and thought home will get me sorted . Only if I had listened to myself closely back then but I guess , it wasn’t meant to happen before and I needed another 3 years to finally come to myself

He’s chunky stalker. Always there like a good buddy he is. Truly a companion. TQVM chubby maruko chan! Hello Am here And the last good bye

Who are you behind those masks? Most people live under the illusion that they are who they thought them to be to these days. We been living the identity or the persona created by us and the society since we were born and over time as we getting older we completely forgotten our true self. Some didn’t even know their true self to the end. You may laugh at this but the world laugh at you harder. The soul is the true self instead of the false self , the ego whoever you id

A beautiful plate of French brioche bread with fresh blueberries and strawberries, blueberry compote, whipped cream,drizzles of mapple syrup and icing sugar to dust. Credit to Panem.

I think it's very important for me to write about this again because once understood then you know how beautiful it is and how amazing god is. Hopefully this writing will give a new perspective and promote self love and acceptance . We are all energy, infact everything around us, consisting of both the male and female energy. Some say matter is form of energy in which the vibration is so reduced to our perceived senses. That’s Einstein. In Taoism , its the Yin and Yang, Yin

The coveted 100th entry dedicated to the very intelligent very social birds, the crows. They remember you damn well and will bitch about you to the rest of the family if you crossed them off. So better be nice to them and of course to all other beings too. They are associated with the magic and death , the realm of living and the underworld, serving as guides. They also linked to Hekate, the underworld goddess. Their presence indicate Hekate' presence and guidance. I lear

Chubby Maruko Chan I'm more than 3 months sober now and of course I have to remind myself how beautiful it is. Its amazing to be free like a bird like chubby maruko chan. No craving at all. No drug in the house no pipe no bong. No contact with my dealer. Am doing good feeling good am behaving and grateful for everything. Those dark days are gone. Sobriety is beautiful than I could imagine and worth fighting for. It's reclaiming of my life and unbecoming to the ultimate versi